Feb 11, 2013 "updated" Nov 25, 2018

Where to begin... the intention I set for myself at first yoga class of the year: Peace and Prosperity.
Since then, I "discovered" these books on my own shelves waiting for me to be ready to read them:

Peace and Plenty: Finding Your Path to Financial Serenity by Sarah BanBreathnach

Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho

and Being Peace by Thich Nhat Hanh

I've not exactly been flying through any of them, but rather tip-toeing tiny bits at a time, but! when the time came - last night - the first two screamed their message. and it is, of course the same message. I trust the last of the three will be there for me when I am ready.

The few pages I read in the first came under the heading "The Reckoning". I read: "No matter how long we push it off, one thing is for certain. If we are ever to get our financial house in order, we must reconcile our books" (94). So I decided it was time to tackle the taxes... Sadness followed and then the realization that I have been beyond my means for many years. I have never budgeted and kept telling myself I don't know how, when in reality, I just didn't want to because then I would have to admit what I now have to admit anyway. It is time to sell the house where I raised my child. It's time for me to grow up. We can do this, but there will be growing pains. They've already begun. I thought I'd wait to talk with about it next month when we were driving back from Atlanta - but I suppose God had other plans and that this was better. We cried and we tried to find a movie to watch together from the collection in my pantry - yep - that's where I put them when I moved the bookcase a few months ago - it had a dead mouse under it :) I warned you this would be "discombobulated" :)

I went up to bed a little before 8pm and read just a little from Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho. I read something about the parting of the Red Sea I'd not heard before. "In the Bible... God says to Moses 'Speak to the children of Israel, that they go forward.' and only afterwards does he tell Moses to lift up his rod, and then the Red Sea parts.
  

It is only courage on the path itself that makes the path appear" (123).

A few pages later I read: "Now I am convinced that the answer will never be vouchsafed to us in this life, but that, at the end, when we stand once more before the Creator, we will understand each opportunity that was offered to us, which we either accepted or rejected" (126).  And then he told a story about a Japanese legend and the man who published a translation of the Tao te Ching not once, but three times and the first two were invisible. I realized I have been writing my invisible books, and that all will be well.

We both had a very difficult time getting to sleep last night and I woke at 3am, my brain whirling away again. So... I got up, turned on my coffee and tried to escape by checking Facebook where I bumped into "Falling Slowly" from the musical Once. I'd never heard of it, but felt drawn to it. The lyrics are now scattered among my ABCs for this morning.

"And games that never amount to more than they're meant will play themselves out."

Brain is swirling

Can't sleep

Decision to be made

"Eyes that know me / And I can't go back / Moods that take me and Erase me ..."

"Falling slowly, eyes that know me / And I can't go back"
Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova, Songwriters

Happy to have finally "
I don't know you But I want you ... It's time that you won
Jacquelyn Beth Law has now returned "home" updated 11/25/18
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Listen to "Falling Slowly" here

"Moods that take me and erase me / And I'm painted black"
Now... keep moving forward

Power of Prayer in this post is evident to me now, 5+ years later
Quote: “When you’re a man of passion - passion can get the better of you - words spill out.” —Billy

Raise your hopeful voice / you have a choice / You'll make it now" ~ "Falling Slowly"

Sing your melody I'll sing along. ~ "Falling Slowly"

"Take this sinking boat and point it home." 

Understanding

Vouchsafed

"Words fall through me / And always fool me / And I can't react...We've still got time."

You'll make it now...You have suffered enough / And warred with yourself / It's time that you won