Monday, the 13th through Sat early am 18th

"Ask once, believe you have received, and all you have to do to receive is feel good." ~ Rhonda Byrne, The Secret
Buddhist Boot Camp: February 17, 2013 : "Being informed instead of opinionated is Blissful..."
Divine Omniscience
Emma Curtis Hopkins qtd. Bhagavad-Gita in the Twelve Powers of the Soul“Never the spirit was born, the spirit shall cease to be never. Changeless the spirit remains, Birthless and deathless forever.”
Forearm stands
"Gracefully popped up into the pose, her first time..." Valerie Reiss 
Handstands and Headstands 

"Inner Peace, Off the Ground: Yoga in the Air and on the Water" by Valerie Reiss

 thank you, Julie
Kripalu newsletter  "Moonstruck"
Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.” ~ Rumi
  Moonlight Serenade Faceebook post Feb 16, 2013

Newbury's Napatree:  Feb 16, 2015
"Our stories remain and ever-present medicine. They are mysterious cups of remedy that carry the choices each person has to face." p. 30 Endless Practice by Mark Nepo
Prescient (adjective) having or showing awareness of and Preparation for the future
Quieting the mind...
"Radiance of buoyant joy" ~ High Mysticism by Emma Curtis Hopkins 1974
"She was free. When she came down, with a euphoric smile, she wanted to do it again, and she did." ~ by Valerie Reiss
 "Truth is a seed hidden in the days
Until watered by what life brings Us." p. 38 Endless Practice by Mark Nepo
Valentines are everywhere: 
"We are all stars in the one Crown, drops in the one Ocean." ~ The Christ Within : A Study of the Absolute by Lillian DeWaters
eXtend you vision farther and farther away from yourself. See
Yourself in a divine Plan of creation perfectly manifest
Zen Thinking shared these words: "Freedom is not necessarily exciting; it's just free. Very peaceful and quiet, so very quiet. Of course, it is also filled with joy and wonder... In order to be truly free, you must desire to know the truth more than you want to feel good...the Truth will rob them of their deepest held ideas, beliefs, hopes, and dreams. The freedom of enlightenment means much more than the experience of love and peace. It means discovering a Truth that will turn your view of self and life upside-down. For one who is truly ready, this will be unimaginably liberating. But for one who is still clinging in any way, this will be extremely challenging indeed. How does one know if they are ready? One is ready when they are willing to be absolutely consumed, when they are willing to be fuel for a fire without end." ~ Adyashanti

Trapped - for how long? Choices

Thank you, Brian Thornburg, for posting this song: Bruce Springsteen's Trapped Paris '85

For years I've been "wearing the same old chains" - I remember exactly where I was when I sat and let this song sink in and heal. I was in the apartment I shared with my boyfriend of three years. Few knew we were a couple, and fewer that we were living together. I felt felt "trapped" financially, and emotionally. Most of my ever-accepting family knew, and my grandfather used to tease me because he liked to send cards and notes to me through the mail, even though he lived in the next town, and I saw him fairly often, but the only address he had for me was a P.O. Box. He said he'd go to the post office and peek in that box and never see me. Ironically, he probably drove by, or within about 30 feet of my place of residence nearly everyday. He loved going down to "The Point" at the end of Stonington Borough as often as possible.

I was not happy but could not imagine living on my own again (financially) or moving back to my parents (again). So, I settled on a place with a friend of a friend and that was a disaster, but somehow, the opportunity to live with a good friend helped me move forward. My next relationship eventually had me feeling like this song was going to be my anthem for the rest of my life. I felt infinitely more "Trapped" fifteen years later, only this time I had no job, still had not finished my four year degree, and had a young child to raise. Still, I was reminded that "the truth will set me free / And ... someday I will find the key" by my older brother, who is also a huge Springsteen fan.

"Well, it seems like I've been playing your game way too long" - so finally, I quit. I just recently quit letting someone whose opinion I do not respect, control any aspect of my future. I finally realized I was still trapped "And it seems the game I've played has made [ME] strong."

I've been teaching "my eyes to see, beyond these walls in front of me" and this week, not only did I finally walk out of there again, this time I took my child with me. Now we are on a journey forward, and wonderful things began happening for both of us. We are both becoming:
"Tougher than the Rest" (the next song that played automatically this am).

"Well it's Saturday night..." and I took the lyrics deeply and fully in my heart, even though their heart is still in a mess, it is healing... and I now know, while my ex may have "Left somebody's heart in a mess," they are still "looking for love" and I am "tougher than the rest[! and]... I learned you get what you can get" ... [I am] "rough enough for love" and I make sure my kid knows every single day: "Honey I'm tougher than the rest... the road is dark / it's a thin, thin line / But I want you to know I'll walk it for you any time..."

The next song that played as I was writing this this morning was "Waitin' On a Sunny Day" - and guess what? It is!!

and the ABCs are coming "Anyway"
Because... it is a Beautiful day and I am 
Choosing happiness and 
Discipline with a Dose of audacity 
"Ever-present choices" and the sanctity of Experience in Endless Practice by Mark Nepo 
Focusing on the good that lies ahead
"Gift of wakeful effort allows us to find our way back to what is heartening and affirming." p. 30
Health, Happiness and strength
I am grateful for this gorgeous day and our willingness to seize it!
Knowledge and ability to search for and obtain exactly what we need
LOVE AFTER LOVE: The time will come when, 
with elation, 
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror, 
and each will smile at the other’s welcome, 
and say, sit here. Eat. 
You will love again the stranger who was your self. 
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart 
to itself, 
to the stranger who has loved you 

all your life, 
whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes, 
peel your own image from the mirror. 
Sit. Feast on your life.
Most of my journals have been purge, and scrapbooks are being pulled apart
Now is the start of New life
"Our resilience is the mystical breath that thaws us and brings us back to life." p. 31
"... Paradox of life is a fire that warms us; one kept going by the stoires and
Questions we add to it." p 30 Endless Practice
Rather than contain our feelings we can absorb them the way the earth absorbs and feeding the Roots of heart and soul with the water of our experience a quiet irrigation.

"Truth is a seed hidden in the days
Until watered by experience." p. 28 Endless Practice
"Vulcan" 
Why not?
Xceptional beautiful day
Zen of sunshine and of breezes

Feb 7,8,9... 2017

"A mind that is free of self-concern becomes a heart that is open to all possibilities." ~ Matt Kahn
Bob Marley's Birthday is today, Feb 6, 1945
"Change is the only outcome. Choice is the only experience. Seeing is the only option. Life is the only witness." ~ Matt Kahn
"Daily, minutely, hourly Rastas pray, you see. Praying is just talk and when you talk, every word you say must be acceptable in front of God. Let the word of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable. ... You make sure you pray continually, so that every word you say, God agree with it." ~ Bob Marley
Friends
Give me the opportunity to say
"Happy birthday!" with a cartwheel, or two

Jess Kelly - Check this out :) 

Kahn says that when you feel anger, judgment, or sadness, your heart is asking for more nurturance and support in those paroxysmal fits of ego pass through. Your heart is asking for more love."
Love is not a feeling.” It is a container that supports and nurtures a process."
"None but ourselves can free our minds." ~ Bob Marley
Out with friends this evening to celebrate Angela's birthday 
Primal Plants  Feb 9, 2017
Reading something inspiring each morning helps set the stage for a focused day
Superfood Spinach Salad 
The less you respond to negativity, the more peaceful your life becomes."
"Underneath it all you won't find anyone deficient in spiritual understanding, but only a heart in need of love." ~ Matt Kahn
Vietnamese Cucumber Salad was my fav: pickled carrot, bean sprouts, fried shallot, sriracha peanuts, garlic, Thai chile, cilantro, mint. yum!


"...eXercise self-compassion... eXit the vicious cycle of judging yourself for judging..." ~ Kelly Brogan
Yes! making progress in a number of areas